Kingdom Kids

I realized the last few weeks how excited I was for church, but not for what I would have ever expected. I love the worship, sermon, and people but what I have been missing most every week are the kids in my class. I was blessed to be placed with the best kids ever, I teach the 4-5 year olds. I think the reason I like it so much is because of my lack of physical touch in my normal life. This may sound weird or creepy but, we were created to touch, hug and love each other but there are not really any appropriate times for touching someone unless you are married or maybe dating, depending on the person. I mean I might get a hug here or there throughout my week but that only lasts a few seconds. These kids want to be hugged and loved for an hr and a half. I guess I just didn’t realized how love starved I was with having no family around. It feels good having five little kids fighting to sit in your lap, for worship time; and when they all can’t fit they just sit so close to you that they are always touching you. They even come up to me outside the classroom to give me hugs; I wish we could all act like 5 year olds. I was talking to my friend after church today and didn’t realized a little girl from my class was waiting to get my attention, I knelt down and she gave me a big hug. I wish when I saw someone I knew I could give them a big hug and tell them I loved them.

I am so blessed to be able to share the Lord with His beautiful children.

Final Grades

So I should have 2 A's and 2 A-'s but one of my teachers gave me a B+!? I really wouldn't mind at all but when I add up my points in the class I have an A. When I showed him this he said that he doesn't care, he doesn't think I deserve an A. That is the funnest thing I have ever heard. I am so excited to have the opportunity to fight this guy. He is going to get destroyed, I already challenged him before on his final paper and won, how can you beat a professional lobbyist? He never had a chance. I will shout out "Lobbied" when I get my A by the end of the week.

Politics

When the righteous thrive, the people rejoice;
when the wicked rule, the people groan. - Proverbs 29:2

I have talked about how I thought I was being led to go overseas to the mission field. I am having second thoughts now. The time I have spent at the capital has been eye opening; I still can’t believe I am getting paid to do what I am doing.

I have always had politics in the back of my mind but I never really thought of it as a real possibility. I am now seeing how possible this can be for me and really starting to plan my life for it. America is the best country in the world; by a lot. Some people don’t believe this and it hurts our nation. I believe in America and I will fight for its people. It is going to be hard to find a district conservative enough to elect me but I will try, it helps being a Sununu. I want to see America; my beloved country raised up not tore down any more. A limited government would be really nice to see again. It takes a smart man to be an effective politician but I know God will lead me. I mean that’s why I am getting into it in the first place, to honor God.

Pride

And he said to all, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. - Luke 9:23.

I have a pride problem.

Pastor Erik talked about this verse a while back and once again reviled this to me.

Everyone has their own personal "cross" which they must bear. My cross is not the same as yours.

Lawyers, Lobbyist and Legislatures

Those are the people I spend my days with now. A few weeks ago I had no idea what Session was but now I find myself knee deep in it. This is a very exciting time; it’s the 2 months we have to pass laws. My office, FHCA, has been kind enough to allow me to be a part of their political team this year. It’s funny how last week the capital was big, confusing and filled with tons of people. This week I found myself wondered by how small it is. Sure there are thousands of people there but I see so many familiar faces every day that it is now a friendly place. Maybe it’s because I am probably the youngest person there or my happy smile but everyone seems to recognize me so even if I don’t know someone’s name we will still say hi. I spend my days hanging out with our lobbyists, fighting for the rights of those who are too busy providing care to our elders to testify for themselves.

If you asked me last month what I wanted to do I wouldn’t have even thought about saying lobbyist but I am thinking about it now. My boss suggested I try it after I finish my internship because I would be good at, be helping help others and taking home a nice paycheck. I am not sure if this is God’s plan for me yet but it does seem to be falling into place nicely. I will continue to have an open mind and heart to hear what God is really telling me.

Work

Life hit me hard last week. I started working full time and with taking 12 credits and all the other things I am involved with it has been a little overwhelming.

I am scared by all the contacts I have already made. Should I give up the doors the Lord keeps opening for me here in the USA to force myself into another country? Or am I lying to myself and only continue to take the path of least resistance. I knew going into this that it would be easy to meet people at the Capital because of my name so why am I surprised when it happens? I am just getting sucked more and more into the American dream, I mean I almost bought an Iphone the other day! I told myself I would never live different if I had money and I need to stick to that. If God wants me to stay in America and change lives here I will, but I will not forget to live simply and give dangerously.

Its crazy how many times I have to stop myself from thinking I know what is best for me and what will make me happy and I think this will glorify God in the process. How is doing ME, glorifying anything other then me?

Tough Love

I am having trouble finding the balance between being an accepting, loving friend and being a friend who loves enough to not keep silent about sin. I guess it depends on the situation and the person but I never know how hard to confront sin. I always feel like I will scare people away or ruin relationships. I have decided that I am okay with ruining every relationship I have for Christ. The tricky part is knowing if speaking out is the best method. Can they see the Christian life just by my unconditional love? They might but I think I have been living in that mindset for too long now and I need to step my love up. Love does not let someone destroy themselves. I am sorry to anyone I hurt, I am not judging, I am the worst sinner anyway, I am only trying to get you closer to God. Love is driving this, nothing else. I wish more people loved me this much because it makes breaking sins hold so much easier.

God gives me the power to stop people from wasting life and show them the path to eternal life, how cool is that. I just pray that everything I do or say is from God with love. Is there a better way to show someone I care about them?